Rescued From Hopelessness
Perhaps more painful than any injury or illness is the feeling of utter hopelessness—the despair of the soul that leads one to thoughts of suicide.
Dean S. experienced this pain as he was going through a divorce at the age of 26. The thought of being apart from his two young daughters was almost more than he could bear. But on one night of stormy darkness, Dean was given renewed hope.
At the time, he was working as a derrick man on a drill rig. That night, he was having serious thoughts of taking his life as he looked down from the 128-foot derrick.
“My family and I have strong beliefs in Jesus, but it was hard not to contemplate suicide,” recalls Dean. “In the worst thunderstorm I’d ever seen, I climbed the derrick to take my position to pull pipe out of the hole we were drilling.”
His co-workers urged him not to climb the derrick, saying they’d rather have downtime than risk someone’s life. Dean ignored this and began to climb.
“Lightning flashed all around me, thunder boomed. I cried to God to take me. If I couldn’t have my family, I didn’t want to live … but I couldn’t take my own life in suicide. God spared me. I don’t know how I survived that night, but I did.
“A couple of weeks later, I bought a small Bible and traveled to the Peace River Hills, where my family has lived for so long. I sat down on top of one of the green hills and started to read. I had such a warm feeling enter into me as the sun parted through the clouds and shone on me. It was raining all around me, but I was dry and warm in my small spot on top of that hill.”
Dean says that these moments changed his life for the better. He met his new wife and fell in love. They started a family together that includes his two daughters. He says, “Thank you, Lord Jesus and the angels you sent that day to touch my soul!”